Tuesday, July 05, 2005

THANK YOU

Thanks for sending me home and doing stuff I never asked of you.
It is seriously annoying for me to always tell you things like "You don't have to do this for me" or "Please just go get some rest".
Its sick.
I'm tired.
I just want some time alone.
I'm pretty sure you do too. Please just say you do. Cos I can't stand being the one who always have to say "yes" to everything. I can't fucking please everyone and just let myself lose sleep and tired over things I knew I could avoid.

I'm just drained out. The fatigue is not just physical, its MENTAL too.
I understand you have to rest but why can't we compromise and rest at home without always meeting up?
Please.
We need a break from each other once in awhile.
You gotta trust me like how I trust you.
Fine I asked "who was she?" but you don't need to throw tantrum like a brat.
I got paranoid, so what? I mean, it wasn't like you told me the truth bout you coming from home. You lied and thats the point.
Like how I lied to you before.
But now I'm freaking honest and blunt.
And you don't seem to like it.

Tell me, WHAT DO YOU WANT, HONESTLY?
I'm getting fed up. I've said sorry and its all up to you to forgive me or not.
Just remember, I don't ask for sympathy.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005 N