Thursday, June 30, 2005

SICK.

am gonna slack a bit today and just type as and how i like. with or without caps.
so i was blunt.
so wats new?
sorry if i hurt u. its not as if you didn't do the same.
the annoyance, the attention seeking, the clingyness, the touchyness, the emo side, the hostility towards guys, the flirtatious bit with girls etcetra etcetra.

i admit. i myself treat some of my friends with extra special treatment. no nothing sexual. just cuteness.
hah, rite.
i mean, who doesn't make use of their looks or assets rite? duh.
as an eldest in the family i'm just tired of giving in to the younger ones. so let me have my way once in awhile. or torture boys.

but its hard knowing i turn u on too well. knowing its gonna end up like one of those New Found Glory songs.
haha. knowing that no matter what, even if you fall for my best friend or fuck another girl when you get drunk, u will still be obsessed with me.
WHY?
cos ur weird.
cos i'm just hard to forget. too irresistable perhaps?
not sure uh.
this is sick.
man, i got dreams, some of which you will never wanna hear (especially according to WHEN they happen) though i did tell you a few. heehee, hear that? a few.
now this is partly what i meant as "dirty sneaks". still don't get it? nvm.

Sorry. really am. please forgive me.
by the way don't let people use you. its damn sad.
the way i see it, just cos u can do something does not make you obliged to do it. Even if its for a friend.
cos friends should ultimately understand that people have their own lives to deal with and not their side projects.
heh.

for the record, i pretty much don't care about the family involvement thing. its seriously unnecessary. i was just too used to having parents liking me. hee. maybe cos i look so darn innocent.

whatever.

Thursday, June 30, 2005 N